Ugh...waste of time

What to write.....sadly I have nothing of supreme interest going on in my life. Well not supreme interest to anyone else. But that it alright....life is like that. How often do we miss opportunities because of fear? We didn't go for that job because we "feared" the rejection. Or I didn't ask that person on a date because they would never go for someone like me....or we didn't try something new because we didn't want to look stupid....how sad. We limit our potential by not being willing to take a risk or by convincing ourselves we aren't good enough to accomplish such a thing. Our potential can be limitless! We have all of these talents and abilities at our finger tips but we lack the courage to take them up! We must really take a look into ourselves and see what is truly stopping us from accomplishing our dreams. How sad it is to have a dream you know will never be able to come true. When really dreams do come true. Sure, don't get me wrong some dreams like obtaining super powers isn't going to completely come true. Well not in the way you may have thought. And don't get me wrong, you can't get anything for free, hard work is essential to achieving your goals. But dreams like, being a good mother/wife is not impossible. But it will take dedication and time to your family and all that that life will hold for you. It is not an impossible dream...just one of hard work.

But I have found in my own life that anythin worthwhile is achieved through hard work. Taking any kind of easy way out to achieve a goal, one undermines it, and you cannot appreciate what you've worked so hard for. Okay, fine, I'm done talking about something no one really cares about but me................

Future

You know, some days I sit and wonder what my future has in store for me. I wonder why I am just sitting here coasting. Now I'm happy but at the same time....something is missing. Am I simply waiting for the next "check point" in my life? I hope not. Cause if I'm just waiting for something to happen then I'll become desperately bored in marriage. Which would be stupid! I don't want my life to be a series of "check points".

Graduation of high school-check
Going to college-check
Get married-pending
Having kids-pending
Dying-inevitable

Honestly...that life does not sound fun. I'd rather have more meaning then that. And maybe I'm just ranting. But still, food for thought. Am I making my life a journey or a check point? Happiness does not come to those who don't appreciate what they already have.

Oh Kitty....

My new kitty Moose...is the devil!

Valentine's.......HA

Today is Valentine’s day. And to give a brief history, Valentine’s Day has been celebrated for centuries. The day has been named for an early Christian martyr, Saint Valentine, which was established in 496A.D. Now, for the sarcastic and bitter ranting of the lonely hearts club...a.k.a. Sarahann and Brenda.
Well for all of those who don’t have a significant other on this day of love and joy, fret not! Singles Awareness Day (SAD) can be just as wonderful for you as it is for all the lucky couples celebrating V-Day. Take yourself out to the nearest grocery store, buy a quart of ice cream, go home, plug in a good movie (one you've seen far too many times), and cry into the couch cushions as not to wake the neighbors upstairs. Though this does not change the fact that you are still single or desperate, it will relinquish the anxiety that has built up due to the pressure put upon you by your parents for grandchildren, friends who are tired of hearing you whine, and society who convinces you that you have to be with someone to be happy. (Special thanks to Stephanie Meyers.)
All joking aside, SAD is a day not to weep your loneliness but rather to celebrate your love for yourself. So go out and buy yourself a box of chocolates and enjoy your awesomeness!

My Picture

alright so this is one of the pieces i just finished for this art show in february. i hope it gets accepted!

Thoughts

What to blog...what to blog.....hmmmmmm....? What a boring thing this is not to have anything interesting to blog about. Is my life really that boring? Or do I just think that no one will want to know about my uninteresting life. I am not witty, and though I find myself vastly entertaining I really doubt that anyone else does. Now this isn't to put myself down. I'm just not feeling that anything has really been going on that would be of interest to write about. I do the same thing everyday. I get up, get dressed (sometimes), go to work, sit for 4 hours and talk to people, go home and either read or watch a movie. Every once in awhile I'll jazz it up and go to Jill's house and watch a movie there or play video games. I live an exciting life, can't you tell?
There is one thing I am looking forward to. My dear sister Melinda is going to "80's" rock out my hair for me. Its gonna be amazing. Its not for anything special, I just want to do it. It was like that time I had Jill dye my hair. I didn't do it for any special reason, just wanted to do something new.
In the not so exciting world of Brendaland, I am going to a Led Zeppelin Tribute concert at the end of this month. I am rather stoked about that. Me and my friend Sara are going. It'll be legendary.

yup.........

pretty sure i am addicted to 80's rock music.......well good 80's rock. I kinda wish I had 80's rocker hair....it would be epic.

As Usual

Well as usual my life is......complicated. Oh so very complicated. Some thing's i will admit are very simple but alas...it never seems to stay that way. Especially dealing with humans and their emotions. How I despise telling people, who are my friends, something I'd rather not tell them. Because mainly I don't want to hurt their feelings and cause a rift. Now you can say "well you don't know how they will respond"...sorry to say but I do have a good idea. If they are my friend, I know fairly well how they will react to certain things, depending on the severity of whatever I am wont to tell them. It's nothing to worry about, oh sisters who read my blog, just a dilemma I have been putting off. Mainly because I care a lot about the person I have to talk to and I know it'll hurt their feelings. *shrugs* I know I'm not doing them any favors by putting it off but......yeah, put it off I will.

super....not

Have you ever wanted to be a superhero? Or at least have super powers? Personally, I have. I've had people ask me "if you could have any super power what would it be and why?" Now to be honest, this is a very difficult question to answer. Seriously...it is. Well does everyone in this alternate universe have an ability? Or is it only a select few in the population like the x-men or the show "heroes"? Because if it is only a select few that have a "sixth sense" or ability then i would want an ability that would allow me to absorb theirs but not take it away from them (if that makes sense) if i come into contact with them then I would have that ability as well, on top of the the ones I've already absorbed. Because like wolverines ability were you don't age and cant really die, I think that would be tiring. I mean how sad and lonely life would be if I had to continually watch all those I loved age and die. It would be like I'm a vampire (minus the blood sucking). I think I would become severely bored if I had to live forever by myself.