Nothing useful

Being emotionally withdrawn has its set backs. I close people out. I make my people concerned about me when really there is nothing to be concerned about. And even though I tell them there is nothing to worry about they worry more. Its silly really...and rather unneccassary. If I'm withdrawn then I'm usually thinking about something that is important to me. Not that it would be important to anyone else....but to me...its something that is going to occupy my thoughts. And obviously this blog. Well technically it wont take up the blogs thoughts....since the blog isn't senciant....yeah that's right I went there. And no...I'm not going to share what is on my mind. Since that would defeat the point of being withdrawn and thinking. Since if anyone else could hear my thoughts they wouldn't be personal thoughts anymore but common knowledge...I'm not sure that last sentence made any sense...But that's alright. It didn't really have to since I'm the one who understands what I am thinking about. I don't think I'll be writing a novel like I normally do when writing in this blog. Which I don't really know if that's unusual for me or not. But maybe I will...and by the looks of it I already am writing a novel. Mindless ramblings are always interesting to read later. Who knows, maybe I'll say something profound. Though I doubt that will be the case. Since I very rarely say anything useful. Which in itself is a "profound" personal observation. But seeing as I am a fairly observant person in general really isn't that shocking that I would notice something like that about myself. Yup, mindless useless garbage that just seems to float around in my cranium. How meaningful, as my aunt pointed out. "Do you have an original thought at all?" Obviously, but if she has to ask me such nonsense then she doesn't really know me very well. How boring people must think I am. Though I am not. I can be a lot of fun if I decide to be. But then again, I'm naturally a fairly "upbeat" sort of person. Or at least I'm told I am. And for the most part that is true. Unless its a day like today where I've decided to be withdrawn and actually think about things that are happening in my life. Which for the most part are a lot of things I can't control. Which I probably shouldn't think about since it'll just make me irritated that I can't change the situation. I can simply control how I react in or to the situations. Which in my head is very logical. Just look at the situation rationally and for the most part you'll be able to figure it out. But a lot of the time our emotions are so strong that they consume our thoughts. Reacting to things with only emotion is very dangerous in my mind. Because if we only react we'll end up doing or saying something that we will regret later. Not something I find appealing. Newton's law of physics :There is a reaction to every action. But how we react to something is important. Because no matter what there will be a reaction. But how we deal with that reaction of ours is what is important to remember.