05 October, 2011

Trying To Figure It All Out

Oh man....I have so many things that I'm worrying over its not even funny. My levels of anxiety are rising to the brink. My car is basically totalled, Blake is coming in early and now we're figuring out sleeping arrangements, he only has a one way ticket so if i don't have a vehicle to drive to Utah he'll be stuck here. (which i wouldn't mind but as i said my house is rather crowded), money is always low and i've been trying to save for this trip and then i had to pay for insurence twice this month. I'm just trying so hard to do things right. And i know this is what being an adult and having responsibilities is about and that getting married or whatever else will not make any of this go away or easier. I know everything will work out in the end. But i still will stress and worry over it all till its past. Having faith that the Lord will help me through is sometimes so difficult to have. I know he will help me but I have to make sure i do everything else i can and am supposed to do first. I know the Lord wont do everything for me and i know i need to do all i can to fix things or to get things done. But its having that patience and that faith that everything will be okay that is so hard to do.