27 June, 2011

Another Day in this Carnival of Souls

The faces of people i'll never see again. why are we overly concerned on how people view us? Strangers to be exact. Now I understand we want our family, friends, and even co-workers to have a good opinion if us. But why are we so overly concerned about how complete strangers think of us? Don't misunderstand me, I'm guilty of being concerned about such things. Like not wanting to make a fool of myself in public. but why should we care? I'll never see most of these people again. But we all make quick judgements about people. i've done this. And i don't really think it should be important! i have been trying very hard to not make assumptions of people. Mainly since, most of the time, its not my business or problem. honestly Why should i care that some random person is wearing this or that? it shouldn't bother me how people perceive me who don't know me. But every now and then i think about it and it does bother me. What a ridiculous thing to worry about! One, first impressions aren't always accurate, but then again, in my personal experiences, it has been. But not in every case. now you may be reading this and wondering where i'm going with this ranting. Well sorry to disappoint you, i don't know where i'm going with this. i guess what i'm getting at is, don't focus and worry about what others think of you, but make sure they see who you really are. i want to have a countenance that shows everyone around me exactly who i am and what i stand for in my life. and sometimes i don't think i always show that to people. i'll have to work on that....

Blake Burns

So he's pretty much the best thing to ever happen to me. He is my best friend. :) And i am extremely blessed to have him in my life. :D

long time

well it has been a long time since i've written anything here. but then again, nothing truly exciting is going on in my life. mainly just living at home (still) and trying to find a job. I need to start work ASAP!!!! i'm serious. This lazing about at home with nothing to do is driving me crazy. i can't stand it. My two friends that actually live here have jobs. So i have NO ONE to talk to. Well that isn't true, i have my sisters. But that's different they both have lives and families of their own to deal with. So I try not to bother them as much as possible. Its a little different for Kristie, since she lives in the same as me. But I am bored all the time. i NEED a job. Just to have something to do. and well, to have money to go do things. which the more i think about it is pointless to go do anything since everyone is BUSY! i would be hanging out by myself. What fun is that? that's dumb and boring. Who wants to hang out by themselves ALL the time? I mean every now and then sure, you want to be alone but seriously? no one really enjoys it. oh well....