Drowning

Good morning day
Sorry I’m not there
But all my favorite friends
Vanished in the air
It’s hard to fly when you can’t even run
Once I had the world, but now I’ve got no one

If I needed someone to control me
If I needed someone to hold me down
I would change my direction
And save myself before I
If I needed someone to control me
If I needed someone to push me around
I would change my direction
And save myself before I drown….drown

Good morning day
Sorry you’re not here
All those times before
We’re never this unclear
It’s hard to walk when you can’t even crawl
Once I had this world, but now I’ve lost it all

If I needed someone to control me
If I needed someone to hold me down
I would change my direction
And save myself before I
If I needed someone to control me
If I needed someone to push me around
I would change my direction
And save myself before I drown

Rolling faster than I’m breathing
Drown
Rolling faster than I’m breathing
Drown
Rolling faster than I’m breathing

If I needed someone to control me
If I needed someone to hold me down
I would change my direction
And save myself before I
If I needed someone to control me
If I needed someone to push me around
I would change my direction
And save myself before I
(Save myself before I drown, save myself before I drown, save myself before I drown)

Never Enough

I'm so fed up with everyone around me...(No one seems to care)I'm just so far gone and nothing's gonna change..(I'll never be the same.It's always do this, do that,
Everything they want to...I don't want to live that way...Every chance they get they're always..Pushin me away.It's never enough.No it's never enough.No matter what I say...It's never enough.No it's never enough..I'll never be what you want me to be...It's all so messed up and no one ever listens...(Everyone's deranged)...I'm just so messed up and I'm never gonna change...(Wanna lay it all to waste)...They're always say this, say that,Nothing that you want to..I don't want to live that way
Every chance they get they're always..Shovin me aside!I'm DONE!In the end we're all just chalklines on the concrete...Drawn only to be washed away..For the time that I've been given..I am what I am.I'd rather hate you..For everything you are.Than ever love you...For something you are not.I'd rather you hate me...For everything I am.Than have you love me.For something that I can't...It's never enough...It's never enough...No matter what I say...No matter who i try to be...No it's never enough
No matter how I try to change.Never never enough..I'll never be what you want me to be.
-Five Finger Death Punch

And I am fine...

Some days are worse then others...yesterday and today....yeah......the loneliness rages on. We all suffer from doubts...on the outside I look fine maybe even appear happy, its a lie. I'm not happy. I'm lying to you when I say I'm okay or that nothing is wrong. I'm overwhelmed with this torrent of emotion...I don't like it. I don't want to feel...A lot of the time I used to view things with a vague disinterest...but now, I can't. Now the nightmare is real...but I wont feel...a thing. I can't allow myself to be drawn into the game. I don't like the rules...so I'm going to change them. I simply wont play. The problem with caring for people is that you get hurt too. And for what? What do I get out of it besides pain? Nothing...I get absolutely nothing. Except more pain and loneliness and even jealousy...which leads to anger. Which I usually am...I am always angry. I don't look it. But trust me...I am. I shouldn't wish I was someone else. I shouldn't want to be anyone but myself. But what if I'm not good enough? Because no matter how hard I try it never seems to be enough, for anyone, let alone myself. I don't know why I vent my thoughts on here. It's pointless. I can't adequately describe my thoughts or feelings why bother really to try and write them down. It makes no difference.