Where I stand....

One more kiss could be the best thing
Or one more lie could be the worst
And all these thoughts are never resting
And your not something I deserve

CHORUS
In my head there's only you now
This world falls on me
In this world there's real and make believe
And this seems real to me
And you love me but you don't know who I am
I'm torn between this life I lead and where I stand
And you love me but you don't know who I am
So let me go, let me go

I dream ahead to what I hope for
And I turn my back on loving you
How can this love be a good thing
And I know what I'm going through

CHORUS
In my head there's only you now
This world falls on me
In this world there's real and make believe
And this seems real to me
And you love me but you don't know who I am
I'm torn between this life I lead and where I stand
And you love me but you don't know who I am
So let me go, just let me go, let me go

And no matter how hard I try
I can't escape these things inside
I know, I know
But all the pieces fall apart
You will be the only one who knows, who knows

You love me but you don't know who I am
I'm torn between this life I lead and where I stand
And you love me but you don't know who I am
So let me go, just let me go

(you don't know)
You love me but you don't
You love me but you don't
(you don't know)
You love me but you don't know who I am

(you don't know)
You love me but you don't
You love me but you don't
(you don't know)
You love me but you don't know me

What drives me.....

NOTHING

ALWAYS ANGRY

I don't really know why. That in itself is frustrating. I try to live my life as best I can. But what if my best isn't enough. What if at first you don't succeed you never will....what if no matter how hard you try it doesn't matter? Somethings get broken and you cant fix it that's just the way it is sometimes. And that is something I am not willing to accept. I cannot abide by that fact, that somethings, no matter what, cannot be altered or changed. Because anything is possible. Anything has the capacity for change. To evolve, for a lack of a better term, and make something of itself. To improve your abilities/talents to the point of "perfection"...I may not be perfect but I can perfect something about myself or my talents to the point that I feel a sense of contentment. If that made sense then alright, which I'm sure it didn't. Which is sad that I can't seem to get my thoughts across the way I want them to.

Interesting

I love having spiritual talks with people who are not of my religion. Learning new perspectives and thought processes are always a fascinating thing. I thoroughly enjoy it. :) Good experiences indeed!

Waste

Dreams are funny things. They heighten your feelings, make you feel it even more. Why do we want things that are no good for us? Alcohol, drugs, even people can effect us, not just chemically, but other ways.We want it. It creates longings that normally wouldn't be there. Thoughts and needs that didn't exist until it was in our "system". And yet, we see the trouble, in others lives and even our own, but we do nothing about it.And once it's out of our system, we don't realize how much better we are without it. Instead, we ache and long for it. For what we once had and desired. But as it turns out we don't need it. We stare so long at the door that was shut in front of us that we don't look to see the door opened behind us.