29 September, 2010
hmmmm....i got nothin
Yeah this is basically what I got today...a whole lot of nothin. I'm bored and I have no actual work to do. And thanks to Jill I am now addicted to bubble spinner. Which is probably one of the most stupid FB games ever...but I cant help but play it. FOR HOURS....hahah so thank you Jill! ;)But really I am just annoyed with myself. i haven't been very productive lately.
27 September, 2010
HUH!?
You know it would be nice to know who is working with me and who isn't. I have a bunch of brand new tutors working with me but my boss didn't tell me who they were. So I'm thinking that there aren't any tutors on shift and here I find out that there are about 4. How aggravating. *sighs*
17 September, 2010
I'm gettin bugged...
My patience has reached its limits with people being stupid. I'm not going to put up with it any longer. If you are going to be mean to me or petty. Then you are not going to be a part of my life any longer. I'm done with it. Its stupid and unnecessary. There is no good reason to be rude or cruel. Just because your life sucks doesn't give you the right to treat people like crap. And try to make them miserable like yourself. The only other person I know who tries to make people miserable all the time is Satan. So go have fun and be best friends with Satan because just like I do to him I'm going to expel you from my life. I don't need you in it just like I do with him I will keep you away from me.
16 September, 2010
Workin hard...
Working two jobs one right after the other is starting to wear me out. Which is ridiculous because I used to do things that were twice as hard as my current jobs! I'm a secretary in the day and fair ride operator at night. And the ride I operate isn't all that difficult. But goodness...I am exhausted! I have been getting to bed late and then getting up early. But I used to get up at 5am to swim for 2 hours and now I can barely get up at 7am! How pathetic! But since I'm only getting 3-4 hours of sleep...no wonder I'm tired :P *Sighs* I think I'm getting sick on top of everything else too...Ugh....Too late now. I gave my word and I'm working everyday...no days off.
13 September, 2010
Things I've realized....
There are some things I've come to realize over the years:
1. Not everyone will see things the way I do. And that's okay.
2. Maturity does not come with age
3. When life seems perfect/great, something will come and try to ruin it.
4. There is always a nice way to tell people something important. Even when it could hurt their feelings
5. Don't let your passions rule your reasoning
6. People are stupid
7. Change is a good thing
8. Life is never fair, get over it
Now I've known these things. Don't get me wrong. It's not like I just noticed them. But lately they've been cropping up more and more in my recent life. And every once in awhile I notice that I do these things or whatnot. But I try not to. I realize that my way isn't always the best or most efficient. So letting others help me or tell me other ways of doing things isn't trying to demean me or say I'm not intelligent. It just means there is never one way to look at something and thus, creates an opportunity to learn. That goes along with maturity, realizing that you aren't always right and take the criticism with stride. Learn from it. Don't let one thing impede your life. Allowing your passions to take control of your life never really benefits anyone. There is a difference between being passionate about something and letting your passions control your actions. We can't always control our atmosphere/environment, but we can always control ourselves/responses. In a world full of chaos, serenity can be achieved by taking a deep breath and stepping back to get a full view of what you are looking at. Self evaluate every once in awhile. Take a firm hold of your life and say "This is where I NEED to be and this is what I need to do to achieve it" It isn't as hard as we make it seem in our minds.
Things and people come and go in our lives. Try not to let it bother you. You may think that someone/thing will always be a part of your life. Well to be honest...that's not true at all. People I thought would be in my life forever aren't anymore. And people I least expected to be a part of my life are now a significant part. Specific people come at very specific times, it is never random. They do their part in either helping you to progress or they stunt your progression. But either way you have learned something. You either figure out that you don't need that or you find out you needed help more then you would have guessed. But either way those people have served their purpose. Accepting that fact, that you cant always have what you want, will greatly be to your advantage. It can help you with later struggles in life, to realize not everything is under your control.
Change is hard. Rarely have I noticed an easy change in my experiences. Change is usually meaningful either for better or worse. But still important. Learning from change or trials that change us is always important. We may not like the changes but either way we have to accept them. Why deny that something is different? It is inevitable for change to occur. We cannot stop it. Nor should you try to stop change. People/things are always going to change or be different. Now trying to elicit a change in a person, other then yourself, is difficult. Trying to force change were none is wanted or needed will never get a positive response. Instead what usually occurs is a negative one. Either they will tenaciously stick to the thing you are trying to change about them or they will push you away. And neither party will profit. Instead it just creates a void in that relationship. For someone to change it has to be their own will/wanting. I have never met someone who wanted to change because people told them to. Now changing for another person rarely works out. Because if that person leaves or is no longer a part of your life then what? You changed for them and it didn't matter. They didn't appreciate that you changed. Always make changes to better yourself. Never to try and please someone else. People will learn to like and accept you for who you are, unconditionally. If they don't then they aren't important. Why be friends with someone who doesn't appreciate your friendship? What would be the point of compromising yourself for them? They hold you in no value. So simply remove them from your life. It's that simple.
1. Not everyone will see things the way I do. And that's okay.
2. Maturity does not come with age
3. When life seems perfect/great, something will come and try to ruin it.
4. There is always a nice way to tell people something important. Even when it could hurt their feelings
5. Don't let your passions rule your reasoning
6. People are stupid
7. Change is a good thing
8. Life is never fair, get over it
Now I've known these things. Don't get me wrong. It's not like I just noticed them. But lately they've been cropping up more and more in my recent life. And every once in awhile I notice that I do these things or whatnot. But I try not to. I realize that my way isn't always the best or most efficient. So letting others help me or tell me other ways of doing things isn't trying to demean me or say I'm not intelligent. It just means there is never one way to look at something and thus, creates an opportunity to learn. That goes along with maturity, realizing that you aren't always right and take the criticism with stride. Learn from it. Don't let one thing impede your life. Allowing your passions to take control of your life never really benefits anyone. There is a difference between being passionate about something and letting your passions control your actions. We can't always control our atmosphere/environment, but we can always control ourselves/responses. In a world full of chaos, serenity can be achieved by taking a deep breath and stepping back to get a full view of what you are looking at. Self evaluate every once in awhile. Take a firm hold of your life and say "This is where I NEED to be and this is what I need to do to achieve it" It isn't as hard as we make it seem in our minds.
Things and people come and go in our lives. Try not to let it bother you. You may think that someone/thing will always be a part of your life. Well to be honest...that's not true at all. People I thought would be in my life forever aren't anymore. And people I least expected to be a part of my life are now a significant part. Specific people come at very specific times, it is never random. They do their part in either helping you to progress or they stunt your progression. But either way you have learned something. You either figure out that you don't need that or you find out you needed help more then you would have guessed. But either way those people have served their purpose. Accepting that fact, that you cant always have what you want, will greatly be to your advantage. It can help you with later struggles in life, to realize not everything is under your control.
Change is hard. Rarely have I noticed an easy change in my experiences. Change is usually meaningful either for better or worse. But still important. Learning from change or trials that change us is always important. We may not like the changes but either way we have to accept them. Why deny that something is different? It is inevitable for change to occur. We cannot stop it. Nor should you try to stop change. People/things are always going to change or be different. Now trying to elicit a change in a person, other then yourself, is difficult. Trying to force change were none is wanted or needed will never get a positive response. Instead what usually occurs is a negative one. Either they will tenaciously stick to the thing you are trying to change about them or they will push you away. And neither party will profit. Instead it just creates a void in that relationship. For someone to change it has to be their own will/wanting. I have never met someone who wanted to change because people told them to. Now changing for another person rarely works out. Because if that person leaves or is no longer a part of your life then what? You changed for them and it didn't matter. They didn't appreciate that you changed. Always make changes to better yourself. Never to try and please someone else. People will learn to like and accept you for who you are, unconditionally. If they don't then they aren't important. Why be friends with someone who doesn't appreciate your friendship? What would be the point of compromising yourself for them? They hold you in no value. So simply remove them from your life. It's that simple.
01 September, 2010
Weather
I am loving this weather! I love the rain it makes my day so much better! It is fan-freaking-tastic!! and yet i am sitting in an office making phone calls...good grief I'm bored! it's not like its hard work but my goodness it gets boring saying the same thing over and over again for 4 hours. *sighs* well whatev its a paycheck! :) soon i will have at least some money to pay for at least gasoline! It doesn't help that I'm starving as well. I ate frozen strawberries for breakfast....what a stupid idea! hahaha...I only say its stupid because now that my metabolism is up and running I'm even more hungry then normal. I'm not used to eating breakfast this early in the morning. Now you may think that 10am isn't early. And you're right...it's not. BUT I didn't eat at 10am I ate at 7am! so HA! :P I didn't eat breakfast yesterday and I didn't get hungry till at least 1pm...which was great since I got off work at 1pm. But now I must suffer for eating delicious frozen things in the morning...gay...
And on top of a boring/hungry morning...I got locked out of the office I am working in. hahaha. Not gonna lie I feel kind of retarded. I work in a smaller office within a big main office area and no one else was in the main office...or so I thought. But I had to use the bathroom so I left and the door was open and then when I came back the door was shut and locked! Least to say I was slightly surprised when I saw that! :P But all worked out in the end. I found Edrease and he opened the door for me and then I was able to get back to work making phone calls and listening to music. How exciting my life is.........................not.
BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED...can you tell what I am right now?
And on top of a boring/hungry morning...I got locked out of the office I am working in. hahaha. Not gonna lie I feel kind of retarded. I work in a smaller office within a big main office area and no one else was in the main office...or so I thought. But I had to use the bathroom so I left and the door was open and then when I came back the door was shut and locked! Least to say I was slightly surprised when I saw that! :P But all worked out in the end. I found Edrease and he opened the door for me and then I was able to get back to work making phone calls and listening to music. How exciting my life is.........................not.
BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED...can you tell what I am right now?
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