Making choices

Well to make a choice we have to know right from wrong and we have to have something to choose between usually good and evil. Heavenly Father gave us our agency. That’s a gift. We have always had the ability to make choices for ourselves, even in the pre-existence we made the decision to come to earth. We chose to embrace righteousness. Making a choice isn’t a hard thing to do. We make choices on a continual basis throughout our day. Whether it is between what we wear or how we react to a situation. But our reaction is a choice. We choose to either react negatively or positively. But that is still a choice. So what choices have we made today? We are constantly being bombarded by Society and friends and family to decide things. To get married, choose a career, to do something with our lives. Which isn’t a bad thing at all but choosing what we want or what is best for us is a different matter. A lot of the time we rush decisions when we really should take a step back and breathe for a minute. I can honestly tell you that I have made decisions without thinking about the outcome. And it kind of just makes life harder.
Being members of the church we are an example to everyone around us. Whether we like to admit it or not, people are always watching our actions and reactions to things. We are “a light on a hill” for everyone to see. And a lot of people have the “my actions don’t affect anyone else, just me” mentality.Well to tell you the truth that’s a load of crap. Your actions never affect just yourself. President Faust tells us,.In this life we have to make many choices. Some are very important choices. Some are not. Many of our choices are between good and evil. The choices we make, however, determine to a large extent our happiness or our unhappiness, because we have to live with the consequences of our choices. Making perfect choices all of the time is not possible. It just doesn’t happen. But it is possible to make good choices we can live with and grow from.Some of our important choices have a time line. If we delay a decision, the opportunity is gone forever. Sometimes our doubts keep us from making a choice that involves change. Thus an opportunity may be missed. As someone once said,“When you have to make a choice and don’t make it, that in itself is a choice.” Strangely, doing the wrong thing often seems reasonable, possibly because it seems to be the easiest course. We often hear as a justification for wrong behavior, “Well, everybody is doing it.” This kind of evil distorts the truth. As Nephi tells us,“Thus the devil cheateth their souls, and leadeth them away carefully down to hell.” Other people’s actions do not dictate what is right or wrong. One person having the courage to make the right choice can influence many others to also choose wisely. I have such an experience in my own life. My Grandparents decided to listen to the missionaries and joined the church. My dad is a convert and how richly blessed my life is for that simple choice he made when he was 14. I am eternally grateful for those missionaries. Just think, if they hadn’t made the choices to be worthy and to go on missions how very different my life would be today.

Nothing's changed but everything is different.

I really hate being uncertain of things. Especially my own feelings. We all have doubts, that's normal...but this feeling of uncertainty is making me sick to my stomach. I am constantly wondering and pondering things I never thought I would. WHAT'S WRONG WITH ME!? My thoughts are forever churning, stumbling, moving throughout my mind. My thoughts are like a river flowing and cascading across the stones of choice. Forever moving never having a break or a moment to cease its anxious route. What am I to do? My thoughts are as water, I can hold them for just a moment before they are gone. The things I was sure of before...I don't even know anymore. Am I insane? Do I righteously deserve this? Why do I feel as if I never have any answers for myself or anyone else. You may ask yourself, "what could she possibly be thinking about to cause such mental strife." Even though I doubt you would use that kind of term. But I will not share on here my mental meanderings. So alas that was probably a pointless question to ask yourself. And now I really am insane. Who would speak and think the way I do? No one. I speak as if I were a 16th century bad poet trying to get their thoughts across with a pretty verse. Well they failed and so have I.

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Brenda Pogue, Your Decode Sexy Name is:

1:B = Beguiling

2:R = Rapturous

3:E = Exchanging

4:N = Nicely

5:D = Deftly

6:A = Amorous

7:P = Passionate

8:O = Offering

9:G = Gratification

10:U = Unit

11:E = Exchanging

Edge of the World

I know your face
I know your smile and how it plays
Into the minds of those who
Cling to every word you say

This isn't how I wanted to
Remember me and you
Your eyes are talking but
Your lips are standing still..
Open your mouth tell me
How I'm supposed to feel?

My finger pointing just a warning
So I suggest you..

Say you're wrong
Let's get this over I
Would like to get some sleep tonight
Let's get this over, I'd like to get some sleep tonight

You make it hard for me to leave
So very hard for me to leave
By now the lies you told are weighing on your chest
If I provide the rope I know you'll do the rest..

But I will not be an accessory
No I'm not who you think
And I will never be your enemy
So don't insult me

Say you're wrong
This could be easier
If I was over her
Say you're wrong
Let's get this over I
I know she's just a girl
But shes got me standing on the edge
I'm on the edge of the world

(My eyes are open for the first time)
(This place not yours it's in my own eyes)

I am not a man who lives a life of soldiers
I am not the kind of man who walks away
I will stand up face to face or toe to toe with anyone
Yes anyone..
Everything you said about me was the truth but
I just don't think that I can look at you the same
You're like a splinter that will never show its head to anyone
To anyone..
Now I know that I was not the man you wanted
You know I loved you and I wanted to make you proud
My intentions were to never give myself to anyone
Look what I've done

(Just look at what I've done)
My intentions were to never give myself to anyone
Look what I've done

Provoking Thoughts of Mine

What am I worth? Am I worth the price of the objects I possess? or am I something more? Now my family would say this is a redundant question, because I am priceless. And my worth cannot be measured by any worldly standard. But isn't that what the adversary is really telling us? That we are worthless and unimportant. How sad it is that people give into such hopeless thoughts about themselves. Now I'm not saying I've never felt worthless. I have. At specific times in my life I have felt that my life was meaningless and worth nothing. That I had nothing of value to contribute to those around me. And who would care whether I was there or not? Their lives would go on and I was sure they didn't need me. Why would anyone need me? Everyone else has someone to go to. I didn't think I was the "Go-To" friend when someone needed help...so who would care if I was gone. Well as it turns out...I am the "Go-To" person for many of my friends. They value my experiences and opinions for whatever reason. But I still have doubts about my worth. That grain has been planted into my subconscious. I question myself and others motives, but life has taught me that I need to do that. Not because I am worthless. Because I have had experiences with people using me and my friendship for their own personal gain and leaving me in the dust. Which is something that has never sat well with me. I don't appreciate being used. No one really does.